This article was written by Savannah Snyder from Canada.
Undergrad is already a daunting and tiring experience - intense classes, homework, exams, socializing, self-care. It is insanely difficult to balance it all. Throw a chronic illness such as IBD into the mix, and it becomes even harder. As many of you know, IBD can take over your life and can make working towards your goals a challenge.
My undergrad experience was full of ups and downs, from being severely ill dealing with stomach aches, joint pains, fatigues, hospitalizations, doctors appointments and more. But, I’m here to remind you and what I wish I heard someone with IBD tell me, is that you can accomplish your dreams, even with IBD.
Ever since high school I wanted to be a lawyer. I dreamed of going to a top law school. I was intimidated by the process and knew it was extremely competitive. When I was diagnosed with IBD in my fourth year of university, I thought that goal might be out of reach for me. I had to withdraw from a semester of school and move back home. I thought “how would someone like me, with holes in their transcript and withdrawn classes, be accepted to law school? How will I be able to handle a rigorous program and career while simultaneously dealing with IBD?”
Looking back, I realized I was dealing with IBD my entire undergrad experience. Instead of gaining the freshman fifteen in my freshman year, I lost fifteen pounds. I knew something was wrong each day but continued to ignore my symptoms, until I was forced to face reality and was hospitalized with a severe Crohn’s Disease diagnosis. I was scared that if something was wrong with me, I wouldn’t be able to work towards my dreams. If I was ignorant regarding what I was feeling, it wouldn’t be true.
When I withdrew from school and returned to my family home, I put my body first. I slowly came to realize that I might as well try to reach my goals of becoming a law student. I began to study for the Law School Admissions Test (“LSAT”), and spent time studying in my bed when my energy levels allowed. I started my first biologic, Humira, was hopeful it would work in time, and I booked my first LSAT 2 months away. I contacted the LSAT admissions team and received accommodated “stop the clock” washroom and pain breaks for my test. As the test date crept up, it became obvious that Humira was not working. I had to increase my prednisone dosage. I was nervous, scared, and began to lose hope. I was upset that Humira wasn’t working for me and was scared about writing a test under these conditions. The increase in prednisone brought nausea, brain fog, mood swings, irritability, fatigue, and more. When my doctor told me I had to switch off of Humira, it was too late to cancel my test. So, I decided to write it anyway. I ended up receiving my first Stelara infusion the day before the test. I told myself, this test will be a practice - and that whatever happens… happens.
I am not telling you to support the hustle culture and ignore your body. I gave myself grace around my results. I told myself if I felt negative symptoms in any way while writing, I would stop and go home. But, I was able to do it.
I wrote the LSAT and did OK and then ended up writing it again the next fall. Stelara ended up being the medication that I’ve been on ever since. I applied to law school as an access student - highlighting the experiences I’ve been through and how dealing with an illness like IBD will make me a better law student and lawyer.
I returned for my last year of school and was able to receive accommodations for exams and classes. I took a smaller class load to balance self-care and healing myself along with my goal of graduating. I’m proud to say I was accepted to my dream law school and have just completed my first semester. Although I have dealt with flares and sickness this past semester, I have reached out to accommodation services and received support. I have advocated for myself and been able to reach the dreams I had before my Crohn’s diagnosis.
I promise you, if there is something you want to do, it is possible. A life with IBD is full of spontaneity - you may never know what’s next. But, all you can do is try. Put your health first, always, but never give up on your dreams.
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